Tabah Dan Redha...

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~ Bismillahirrahmannirrahim ~

Musibah dan dugaan dariNya melanda saya dan suami. Dalam pada keriangan dan kesyukuran menerima rezeki zuriat dariNya, dalam sekelip mata turut diberikan ujian untuk kami.

Ceritanya bermula Ahad (13 Feb 2011) lalu, oleh kerana dah berjanji nak bawak anak-anak bersuka-ria di Playland maka kami pun menghabiskan masa di Playland Jusco Tebrau bertemankan ely dan anak-anaknya. Sesudah puas menghabiskan masa di sana, baliklah kami ke sarang masing-masing.

Sepulangnya saya ke rumah, anak-anak pun dah tido, maka saya angkat lah sorang demi sorang masuk rumah. Then saya ke toilet, OMG... I was bleeding!!! The blood was so fresh-red coloured macam darah period. Saya dah menggigil satu badan. Am I losing my baby???? tu je yang terlintas dalam otak saya. Then I made a few calls here and there, asking what should I do. Memang cuak sebab hubby pun takde - offshore, couldn't call him at all. Malam tu saya tak ke mana-mana since the bleeding was stop.

Isnin (14-02-2011), early in the morning I found that I'm still bleeding. Still fresh and red as before. Actually I couldn't sleep well the night before, thinking of what will happened next. So I've decided to go to see my Gynae @ Regency Specialist. My father sent me there then I asked him to go back coz Aina was at school then who will take care of her. I made appoiment but unfortunately, at 10 a.m, the Gynae had an operation to be done. They (still) asked me (eventhough I've told the nurse that I am pregnant and bleeding) to wait until 12.30p.m. OMG... I was alone there and confused.... Then, I drove to the nearby Klinik Wanita & Kanak-Kanak. The doctor checked me and diagnosed something that really out-of-mind. She said that I might be had an ectopic pregnancy with cyst in my womb!!! DANGGGGGG!!!!! Again I was so down... Is it true? But she asked me to go for further check-up with speacialist to confirmed. My UPT Test was clearly positive but she said she couldn't see any sac in my womb, so she thought that its might be an ectopic pregnancy syndrome.

I need to go to my Gynae again to double-checked and confirmed it. I called the hospital and confirmed the very suitable time for me to come, as I'm sick of waiting ALONE!!! The hardest thing is when I have to face it all alone without my dear hubby and that's really make me cry a lots. But luckily, Allah tu maha mendengar lagi maha pengasih... suddenly hubby called, saying that he was onshore to standby for another trip to offshore. Luckily I can talk to him and ask him to come A.S.A.P. Thank you Allah.....

2 p.m : I was there @ the Regency Hospital, waiting for my turn. Thanks to ely, Thanks babe, sebab temankan aku masa tu if not, mesti aku dah meroyan menangis sorang-sorang kat sana, really appreciate that!!!

My turn comes at almost 3 p.m. Telling Dr Thokha about my problem (and complaining about how the staff entertained me). Then he examined me, not only with scan but together with the camera 'inside' me. He confirmed that I had a normal pregnancy. No such thing as the ectopic pregnancy. The 'baby' is still there (as you can see below) :

Can you see the black-spotted there? It is the 'baby' in the right place... Alhamdulillah....

BUT!!!!! Why I am keep on bleeding??? Dr said it is the sign of miscarriage - which is called the Threatened Abortion. I have the sign, but the baby is still there. However in the age of 5wks++ , he couldn't find any heartbeat but he can't confirmed that the 'baby' is gone. Maybe it's too early to detect or maybe it's gone. He gave me an injection to strengthen my womb and prescribed me with the hormone tablets. I had 1 week mc, from yesterday till the next Monday. I need to be totally bed-rest at home, praying for a miracle. Dr advise me not to put on much hope till the next check-up that will be on the next Monday. If there is still no heartbeat and no development of the fetus, so I have to let it go.... So sad.... And I can't help myself to cry over it for the whole night yesterday.

But today, I know, I need to take it positively. If the baby is for me and hub, so it will be there. If not, Allah knows what is the best for us. He definitely knows!!!

Saya harus Tabah dan Redha pada segala ketentuanNya....

Oh ya... Saya tak rasa apa-apa sakit walaupun keep on bleeding tapi malam tadi dan pagi ni, saya ada rasa slightly pain macam rasa time period tu. Dr kata kalo sakit sangat @ keluar darah berketul kena pi hospital... now I'm still waiting for that sign. If not... Let's wait till Monday.

Thank you friends for all your says and doa trough the FB/sms/calls. Really appreciate that... Thank you again....

~ Wassalam ~

**About the Threatened Abortion :

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